OVERLOADED

Gosh, I don't know where to begin. Lets start with something that happened today...At one point in my life you were my one and only, my everything, the keeper of my heart and the one person who I was going to marry. Today, we are both at work. I am waiting for a slider to open and you walk out of the administration building to exit the jail. We look right at eachother and look away. No words are exchanged, no small wave, not even a smile. This AMAZES me! Actually, it is really sad to me. OK, enough of that. Bestfriends...are they really a good thing? The past two weeks have really shown me that friends are replaceable. BUH. I didn't want to think that, or want that...but that's what I got. Remember when I was going through a hard time? And you were no where to be found? And, I had to point out the fact that I needed you and you were not there. And, reguardless of if I am in a relationship I see you all the time. Whether my girlfriend liked it or not I saw you pretty much on a daily basis. You cried, recognized that you had been a "shitty" bestfriend. I don't expect you to be by my side 24-7. I dont expect you to constantly pick me up when I am down. ANYWAYS, I pointed it out the first time...and promised myself that THIS time I would just let you go...drift farther and farther away...I wouldn't point out the fact that you were not here for me. You said, "Toni's going through something." YES, I AM. I was lonely, sad, confused and let down. So many emotions at one time, and noone there to talk to. So, I have made new friends. I hope you true happiness. OH YEAH, Junior is my son. Ha-Ha. I will humor the collar though. I got you the Christmas Gift you asked for. Maybe, if your not too busy I could give it to you. I dont expect anything from you. I may have LOST my mind. But, will find it on my own...it has to be good for me! Right?