This too shall pass right?

I was asked tonight if I was ok…quietly I replied, “I will be.” No I am not ok. My heart hurts and it won’t stop. Everyday I find more reason to hate you. I want and need to hate you. I hate what you have done to me; the things you have done behind my back, the way you play with my emotions, the way I feel inside. You have taken me on the most amazing roller coaster ride of my life and it will NEVER happen again. I despise you, and the fact that you are still capable of breathing after putting me through hell. Yes, I may have done the things I did, but that is only after you left me and left me and left me. How many times can one person be put through so much? You are a bad person. You tell me you love me and turn and walk away on a dime. You had plans to make a mockery of me…the same night you were supposed to be in someone else’s bed “cuddling”, you were in my bed trying to have sex with me. Good thing I stopped you huh? I figured it would be just as shitty as it was the thirty times before so why even waste my energy and expertise. You tell me to make love to you only so you can take my heart with you as you walk through my front door. You make me so sick I could vomit all over your face as I stab the black, dull heart out of your chest…you don’t need it anyways, you’re a heartless bitch. A bipolar-psychopathic, manipulative liar! You have me twisted. I could have given you the world but you decided to fuck around and play games. You can’t lie to me now…I know everything. I know you love me; I know you want to be with me. “I’m just so confused when it comes to you Toni.” Save your bullshit and go play with someone else’s head. You need something with sustenance…I got your sustenance in the local state hospital! I hear the view is amazing, you should really consider checking yourself in! I have so much I want to say to you, I wish your lame ass would show up at my doorstep wanting to talk. I would eat you alive, so for your safety, I suggest you stay…far, far away! I don’t wish you the best, and I don’t hope you find what you are looking for…always true and always honest…TONI….