Lessons....

In life many lessons are learned...some unfortunatly are learned the hard way. Each and everyday I get older and I am starting to feel wiser. I understand misery loves company and we as human being need to feel loved and wanted. And when and if that does not happen we will do anything to ease the pain our heart feels. We long for a distraction, that will help us forget the hurt within us. Rebounds are an unfortunate method for heartache! I have been known to use a rebound a time or two; not really thinking at the time they were a rebound, but just knowing I will never be with this person forever keeping me safe and sound, busy, preoccupied and allows me time to peice together my broken feelings with a distraction of anothers company. But, then the rebounds heart gets involved...now that was not supposed to happen...so in return for their time they part from me with a broken heart. It is a viscious circle. Unfortunalty, most of our actions, especially when love is involved effect somebody in someway. I didnt think about that too much until now. I have had a recent heart ache and have used NOONE to help me get through it, except of course my friends. No rebound, no one in my bed to cuddle and comfert me...it is definately a growing experience. I have learned so much and grown in the past month it amazes me. TBC......