BOI

OK, you say you read my blogs...this one is for you! There is so much I could say, but I am not sure where to start.

I think of all the times you told me I’m beautiful but I just can’t help but wonder how much of me you really see.

I am the same person you first fell in love with. Reguardless of what you may think.

I believe that you have a misconstrued perception of who/what I really am. When I told you, you were the "one" for me, I meant it. It does not matter to me if I fall in love with a man or a woman. No, I dont need to have sex with both for the rest of my life to be fufilled. You completed me Joshua, but your possessivness pushed me away and I have made myself stay gone. I recently told you that I would always be your friend, but that we would never be together again. This is not because I don't love you very much, but because as well as you know me, you cannot and will not ever fully understand me. I tried so hard, I loved you the best I knew how.

Why is the boy that makes my heart break the same one that makes it beat faster?

Life must go on. I must look for someone else that makes me feel the way you did. But I get scorned for it, like I am the only one dating other people; or "having fun" is the way you like to put it.

Without love we have nothing.

We as humans are forced to carry on with our lives; and are always looking to feel loved. I could go on and on...but it really does not matter at this junction in our lives. But before you go ahead and point your finger at me, take a long look in the mirror and you will see that you are 50% of everything that has happened to us.