Truth Be Told

I am not writing this to float my own boat...but to tell you the truth. I know for a fact I am an amazing person! I know I am smart, well rounded and open minded. I know that I am spoiled, but that does not make me a brat! In no way is my head "BIG". My shit smells, I sweat and have BO like the rest of the world. Please dont confuse confidence with cockiness. I am very confident but at the same time im grounded! I was raised right and because of that I am the person I am today. I will be the first person to give you something you need; and if I dont have it I will find a way to get it for you. I dont ask for much, only loyalty and love. With that comes happiness, honesty and a life worth living. I have never wanted for you to think of me in any way other than what I am. You know the truth though, whether you choose to say it or share it, you know I am a good seed. I am not sure why I "scare" you...I would not have strayed without a fighting chance. The grass is only greener on the other side until the winter hits and it dies out. I did find you so fascinating, so beautiful and someone that could not only challenge me (in a good way) but possibly keep my heart fullfilled until it stops beating. If only you could have allowed yourself to act on the things you said, the things you wanted. Not just anyone would move out of the state with someone unless they truly did LOVE them. I know you have a hard time communicating, but you know I was always there when you were ready to. When you got closer to me, you would often take a step back. It continued like this for months; this is unhealthy and would get the two of us no where. I do not hate you, only some of your choices and things you say or write. I do not intentionally want to hurt you. I am very, very forgiving and that is not a weakness, it is another strength in my eyes.